Hello friends, I made a short video tonight instead of writing ( because sewing won out) Two brief updates, and then the real reason for this message. First: Iluminado has been open just over a week, and a beautiful review came out in Monterey County Weekly. The piece reflects what we hoped the installation would do — invite people into an experience that’s participatory, immersive, and quietly transformational. If you’re local, I hope you’ll take some time to experience it at the Monterey...
15 days ago • 1 min read
It's Cathartic to Tell the Truth “ Your party sounds amazing. I wish I could attend but I’m overwhelmed with my life right now and don’t think I’d be a very good guest in my current state” ( instead of replying “ Yes” to an invite and then trying to find ways to squirm out of it) Saying “ I’m sorry I was an A$$shole” instead of investing hours in an explanation that tries to justify unacceptable behavior. And one of my very favorites “ I’m sorry it took me so long to reply to your email. I...
about 1 month ago • 2 min read
✦ Blood on the Runway.See Red Deluge → ✦ From Structure to Studio 2.0. The artist returns. ✦ Breathe, Balance, Body.Podcast with Angela Tait → When I think of true elders, one word rises up: Serenity. Not the absence of emotion, but the wisdom to pause. To regroup. To respond with restraint instead of reaction. That kind of presence isn’t born overnight — it’s forged through experience, risk, and trust in the unknown. The Leap In July, I gave myself permission to pause. To release this...
3 months ago • 2 min read
Some of our greatest strengths are also our most persistent saboteurs. Excitement and anxiety ride the same current. Care becomes control. And for me—being true to my word can sometimes harden into a dogged rigidity, an insistence on honoring commitments even when the circumstances have clearly shifted. Reader ,maybe you've felt that too. That’s the shadow side of commitment—and this moment craves more light. I started this newsletter in 2016, sending out enthusiastic emails on breathwork and...
5 months ago • 2 min read
Read time: 5–6 minutes A story of communal loss of focus Why movement is the antidote to mental chaos The healing power of group movement Two chances to show up live this July I came to while striding through my kitchen. A dirty coffee cup in one hand, the other holding a single sneaker and my cellphone—still open to an Atlantic article that had caught my eye in the news feed. Abruptly back in my body, I had no idea where I was headed or what I planned to do, but it was clear that the hour...
6 months ago • 3 min read
Do you ever have those fleeting moments where it feels like you are living outside of space and time? When you’re lost in creative flow, or consumed by a passion project? Or even just as you wake up in the morning Reader —suspended in the strange in-between, your dream-self dissolving as the aches of your body and the weight of the world settle in. How many times have you wished you could live in an alternate timeline? One where your body didn’t hurt, where circumstances unfolded differently,...
6 months ago • 2 min read
There are moments—like this week—when the world feels like too much. You open the news and it hits before you can brace: airstrikes. university occupations. protest crackdowns. leaders falling. systems unraveling. And yet somehow, you’re still expected to reply to emails, make dinner, smile at strangers in the grocery store. The body knows something is wrong, even when we keep moving through our day. This past Saturday, just 90 minutes before teaching The Source Awakens, I was out walking my...
7 months ago • 2 min read
Hi Reader, Thanks to everyone who tuned in (or set an alarm!) for Thursday’s IG Live on the Gyrotonic Method and bone density. The questions were smart, the conversation was rich—and if you missed it, I’ve got you covered. 🎥 Here’s the replay: We talked about: Whether overhead work with the Wingmaster can replicate heavy lifting If jumping on the JSB with max resistance creates enough impact How much challenge is actually required to stimulate bone growth And most importantly: How do we layer...
7 months ago • 1 min read
My hands gripped the edges of the table as I took another breath and focused on relaxing the area beneath my left scapula. The needle bit into my skin, searing a path down my back as I exhaled slowly, keeping perfectly still while tension rippled through my body. Then ...Release. A magnificent flood of warmth spread across my system. The moment the needle lifted, my body melted. Relief washed through me like an internal tide, eclipsing the distress signals that had overwhelmed me just seconds...
7 months ago • 4 min read